Sederhana.

I can't remember when was the last time I turned on my laptop. And I just turned it on because I want to download the new episode of Glee. I really do not care when others start to talk shit about Glee because I think everyone has their own preferences. And I just want to live my life.

Kesederhanaan.

Darren.

I am to obssessed with you, Darren. And I am excited when I know about your weight and height.

73 kg, 174 cm.

I did some measurement in my room just to get the real figure of how tall you are. Yeah. Your tall enough for me. *blush.

And your just too handsome with that height. Love.

When you have a choice on whether to be right or to be kind. CHOOSE TO BE KIND.
- Wayne Dyer

Pen.

I had my Research Method paper just now. And the paper is blue in color. Just like my blue baju kurung and scarf.

I become more excited to use my current favorite of blue and black gel pen. And I choose black one to write all the details. Then to the objective paper I wanted to choose the blue one because it just look good together.

Then I realized. It's already out of ink. But I just don't give up. And I start to do some random scribble on my examination slip.

Then I gave up. And I turn back to him.

"Boleh tak nak pinjam satu pen biru cair? Hehe"

And it reminds me during the first semester of the Diploma. Final examination at Laman Perdana. He sat on my right and we are not from the same class.

And sadly my pen is out of ink again. And I need to ask the invigilator to borrow one of his blue pen because he got a lot of it on the table.

And you know what. It is the same person that helped me today.

My twins.

Farith Zainudin :)

Lain.

Der.
Senang betul kau kan der.
Kejap ke timur.
Kejap ke barat.
Ada masa ke utara.
Ada masa ke selatan.
Hiruk pikuk dunia semua kau bantai.
Pelukan ciuman sementara katanya.
Sekalung penghargaan untuk kau der.
Atas kemajuan kehebatan diri.
Tahniah.
Untuk kau, der.

Tumpang.

Galak matanya melilau
Habis sana sini ditatapi.
Turun naik nafas
Cuba mengharungi rendah tinggi.
Sekejap menghela nafas
Sambil diri galak menaip kekunci.
Satu persoalan timbul di benak.
Ya engkau.
Mengapa galak menunjukkan belang.
Mengapa bangga mengeluarkan taring.
Cukuplah. Sedarlah
Kerana sesungguhnya
Kamu tidak lebih dari itu
Dan akan terus menjadi
Seorang penumpang.

Cuba.

Kadang-kadang,
Fikiran celaru
Hati membeku
Kerana diri ini
Sememangnya terlalu ghairah
Untuk cuba memahami
Akan engkau manusia
Yang hanya mendengki.

Bahagia.

Berhenti dengan andaian.
Aku bahagia dengan mereka.
Tapi disebalik hijab itu,
Terkumpul satu rasa.
Yang hitam.
Yang busuk.
Yang dinodai.
Bahagiakah engkau,
Jikalau hidup penuh dusta.
Semata-mata untuk terus bersama.
Tahniah.
Engkau perosak bahagia.

Nyata.

Berharap ledakan amarah menjadi semangat.
Berharap timbunan tohmahan menjadi pendukung.
Berharap sedepa kesombongan menjadi pendorong.
Berharap sekelumit memori menjadi nyata.
Berpijak.
Terus berpijak.
Di bumi yang nyata.

Mungkin.

Katanya, zarah itu hanya menjengah.
Melihat keadaan dunia.
Yang penuh.
Penuh dengan tiupan penipuan.
Penuh dengan sorakan penjatuhan.
Mungkin.
Suatu hari nanti.
Zarah akan mula berdiri.
Menyesali kedatangannya kesini.

Satu.

Bersatu dalam tangisan.
Walaupun penuh dengan esakan.
Namun.
Sinar mula memberi harapan.
Dengan munculnya seukir senyuman.
Dengan hilai gelak tawa berdendangan.
Cukup. Satu.

Dia.

Manusia bertopengkan senyuman.
Senyuman yang menjadi sentapan jiwa.
Padahal dimuntahkan cacian makian yang ada.
Meluahkan isi perut hati bumi yang bergelora.
Dia.
Tajam berbicara.
Tanpa mengira betapa tajam pisaunya.
Bangkitlah.
Sedarlah.
Hidup. Mati. Redha. Ilahi.

Bila.

Bila dah tertanam di hati.
Bila dah terkunci di bibir.
Bila dah tertayang di mata.
Sesungguhnya.
Permata juga kelihatan seperti pasir.
Zamrud juga kelihatan seperti hampas.
Hiduplah. Hiduplah.

Terima.

Hiduplah kau bersama pelangi.
Yang ternyata lebih cantik berwarna-warni.
Daripada guruh yang suram di waktu senja.
Ya.
Ternyata.
Kau tidak pernah cuba.
Untuk memandang guruh yang sedang derita.

Blessed.

And she always has the right words to say, the right advices to share, and the right stories to be told. And with that reason, I just love her more and more and I am blessed because at least I know in this world, I still have someone to be called as a true friend. Thank you Nadia_Ikan sayang.

P/S: And Alhamdulillah, although we are far apart, but they are always there for me. Dear girlfriends, Yang Hazeera Hafezah and dear lovely cousin, ZawaniZul. I love you.

Hypocrites can't do a thing on you.
- Ahmad Khai, Mutiararians.

Kebaikan.

Until one point, I just want to cry and sleep with the tears. Because you guys just love to judge people and make assumptions. And start to talk shit and amazingly at the same time still can pretend like everything was fine with the fake smile. Take things for granted. Arigato :)

Discussion.

I remember back then during my Diploma Journey whereby we had one urgent HATSS meeting and at the same time we also had 2 major tests. And unfortunately I did not study anything at all.

There we go, 5 committees of HATSS; Iylia, Helmy, Ef, Shaz and I myself had one discussion about the test at the student lounge.

And amazingly, it really helps me to score.

I can't remember whether I did post the entry about it before but what I can remember, they gave many silly examples to support the points.

Again, it helps me a lot.

And here I am trying to do the same thing for CTU paper since I cannot take it last semester due to the maximum credit hour and somehow it does not feel like the same as the old days.

Maybe last minute works will give you big impacts kot. Haha.

Dear Final Exam, be good to me :)

Horizontal.

I am really bad in memorizing Vertical and Horizontal. And I make an effort for this semester for the sake of Accounting Paper whereby I learn how to memorize the Horizontal by the joining bridge between the two of big I's that will make a complete H. Oh My. I am bad on explaining things :(