Persepsi.

P.E.R.C.E.P.T.I.O.N.

the way you think about something and your idea of what it is like - Longman Dictionary

Sometimes your own perception does not reflect the meaning as it really is. Whether you noticed or not, your perception did changed even though for an instant. And it happens because of your emotions and experiences.

P/S: Thanks to you. You did changed my perception.

Oh My.

Best Dressed Man - CQ Style, Week In Style

Great sangat.

And actually you are former students from SMK Section 5. And that is my school. And that is where you studied too before. And this is how you pay back our teachers efforts?

http://beritasemasa.com/ariff-alfian-rosli-kahwin-gay

** They already remove the entry :(

Last week.

Next week dah start study week. Minggu ni dah bermacam-macam test dan presentation. Penat bila semua subject pun dah tercompile sekali. Lagi penat bila hidung sakit, selsema, demam sekali. Memang tak boleh nak concentrate bila asyik mengalir je air hidung. Haha.

Terserempak Pika dekat kafetaria. Dieorang dengar rumours yang mungkin tak jadi nak kena pindah Puncak Alam next semester sebab ada masalah dengan perebutan bangunan fakulti. At the end, students jugak yang akan susah nanti kan. Heysh. Ijat cakap parking kat puncak lagi teruk. Class pukul 9 tapi 7.30 dah start gerak. Semata-mata untuk parking. Management encourage bawak transport sendiri tapi parking space tak nak bagi parking space. Macam-macam.

Apa-apa pun, I can't wait to end this week. Aku nak rehatkan badan sekejap. And btw, aku ada voucher free. It's for this weekend. Agogo berjimba-jimba time :)

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Save the date.

Yang, Hasmiera is getting engaged! 6th February next year. Save the date. Haha. Excited!

- 13.52, 17 Dec, Wanie.

Dear Hasmiera, congratulation. Semua orang tunggu antara kau dengan Hanis. Siapa kahwin dulu. Untung rezeki kau dulu. Alhamdulillah. Nanti time bertunang, confirm kiteorang 6 orang datang tolong. Semoga hubungan berkekalan sehingga jinjang pelamin. Tak sabar nak jadi aunty terhormat untuk si baby :)

P/S: One of my former classmates since primary school.

Akhirnya.

Dapat jugak cari apa yang diidamkan. And like always pandangan dia jugak yang akan banyak tolong. Walaupun kaki nak tercabut tapi takapa. Once in a while kan. Nanti jarang dah :) Arigatō Nadia-san.

Tak Jadi.

We have been prepared for the presentation. Lepas tu lecturer boleh tanya,bila kamu punya presentation?

Like what?!

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Thank you awak :)

Prank Part 1.

Khamis lepas aku teman Nadia jumpa long lost cousin aka classmate aku sendiri, Ella gi dinner. Venue, tasik Seksyen 7.

And tiba-tiba aku di prank.

:)

Kerja.

Things to do for this weekend:
1) Siapkan minute meeting BEL semalam.
2) Check draft script Jepun from Shaz.
3) Siapkan SEMUA latihan Financial.
4) Buat manual notes for Ticketing.
5) Check past year BEL from Kimi.

Upcoming Quizzes:
1) Financial - Next Tuesday

Upcoming Tests: 
1) Listening Japan - This Friday
2) Service Management (online) - This Friday to Sunday
3) Ticketing & Tourism - Next Tuesday
4) Financial - Next two weeks

Assignment:
1) Tourism (group) - Next week
2) Economics (group) - Next two weeks
3) Video Japanese - Next two weeks

Jomheboh Part 2.

Pagi-pagi dah stress sebab parking lot. Aku ada stiker Jomheboh kot. Lepas tu dia cakap aku tak boleh masuk, kena berebut dengan orang lain jugak. Penat aku berperang mulut pagi-pagi lepas tu aku park je tepi sekejap. Nak bawak turun barang yang berlambak lagi. Teruk parking management dia. Kalau takde parking, baik tak payah bagi stiker. VIP pun berapa kerat sangat kan.

Start masak, sampai tengahari baru boleh gi jalan-jalan second time kat area Jomheboh. Nadia nak beli barang untuk kawan dia so aku follow je sebab duit pun takde kan. Haha. Tyra untung sebab dapat botol last Nestea. Sedap yang teramat minum air sejuk waktu panas!

Continue dengan kerja non stop sampai malam sebelum stock habis. Aku syok gila dapat duduk sekejap dengan Awe. Tapi tup-tup Acu suruh potong roti lagi. Then baru nak habis potong, stock dah sampai! Huhu. Alhamdulillah, this was one of my great experience. I love you Nadia. Thank you.

P/S: Thanks for the celebration lepas mandi. Snap-snap picture ramai-ramai. Thank you untuk hadiah tu. And thanks to other friends yang ingat. Yang ber-MMs, lukis gambar, blog entry. Thank you tomodachi.

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Jom Heboh Part 1.

Directly after homestay kat Negeri Sembilan, teus aku rush gi jumpa Nadia. I am helping her family with the Oblong Stall. And, Tyra pun komplot sekali bila dia berlakon tak tau apa-apa dengan plan Nadia ni. Haha. Thank you sayang-sayangku. And to si Awe jugak. Thank you selalu teman joget lagu Glee sama-sama!

Tadi, mainjob aku masak roti. Pastu dah petang sikit, baru tolong kat depan. Strategy aku attack kanak-kanak comel pastu suruh dieorang pujuk parents dieorang rasa pulak. Hehe. She helped me to make me feel comfortable among the others. And, I am soo happy being with the best friends dari zaman sekolah dulu. Thank you awak, Tyra, Awe. I enjoyed laughing with you guys walaupun selalu lampi sangat bila Che Pian buat lawak. Haha. Arigatõ.

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Arrived.

So homestay sebilik dgn Yana. Serumah dengan Nisa and Hani. Experience baru hari ni bila naik upih kelapa dengan tangkap ikan keli dengan tangan. I am proud of myself. Haha.

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Sakana sakana.

Banyaknya kawan-kawan awak! Nanti saya mekapkan kat awak macam depa k!

Kura.

Esok aku and classmates akan bertolak ke Kg. Lonek kat Negeri Sembilan. Program Homestay under Principle of Tourism. Suka ke tak? No I am not sure. Sebab aku memang dah lama argue dengan idea ni. So kebanyakan masanya aku hanya berdiam diri dan buat apa yang mampu, senyap. Aku in charge dalam pemberian cenderahati untuk family homestay tu. Sekilas pandang rasa macam program anak angkat pulak. Sampai kena ejek dengan kawan-kawan, dah Degree pun nak pergi Opkim lagi. Heyh.

Last weekend I had such a good time with you and her. Makan sama-sama, gelak, study sama-sama. The best part mungkin everytime waktu makan. Haha. Tak ada duit pun pulun dok beli macam-macam bagai. Then, bila dapat skodeng budak depan yang perangai tak senonoh sangat. Aku yang malu. Haha. Menari lagu Glee Rumours Have It/Someone Like You dengan penuh bersemangat. First time aku suka sangat macam tu. Thanks sebab make me feel comfortable with you guys.

Again the life. Baby hijau tak pernah meragam lagi tapi kadang-kadang bila dia sakit, aku jadi risau sangat. Ku & Ra dah membesar and dah pandai gaduh-gaduh, berebut makanan. Susah sikit bila waktu makan Ku lebih kurang waktu aku makan tapi Ra suka makan lewat-lewat. Housemates were great like always lagi-lagi dah ada kelab tarian kat rumah. Hee.

I saw someone just like you in the faculty. Mula-mula rasa gelabah jugak bila berselisih. Lama-lama, dah tak ada perasaan pun. Haha. Hiburan mata je kot kan. And that day ada rezeki pulak jumpa kawan lama. Last time jumpa kat Penang waktu aku part 2. Dia dah bukak braces yang dia pakai. You look fine like always. And last week pulak other friend ada operation. Sorry tak dapat jumpa before that operation. Take care dear friend. Get well soon.

Oh yes,  it is a new trend buat assignment last minute and tak ada bahan langsung. Semua pun propa bagai. Haha. Lepas tu dah sambung bat kerja kat rumah, pinjam komputer kawan pasang movie. Budget nak buat kerja sambil tengok movie lah. Tapi endingnya, kerja jugak tak habis-habis. Class pulak berderet-deret nak cancel sampai rasa bahagia sekejap sebab ada masa untuk buat assignment yang berlambak tak siap-siap. Ouh, ha haritu aku balik, mintak housmates jagakan Ku dengan Ra. Ni apa yang dieorang buat. Mendera kot. Haha.

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Hati.

Susah sangat bila kita baru nak cuba untuk bersabar dan menerima segalanya seadanya, tapi waktu itulah semua dugaan datang tak henti-henti. Bila kita baru nak belajar untuk luahkan perkataan ikhlas dengan seadanya, waktu itulah semua benda jadi tak mengikut kehendak hati. Waktu kita tengah cuba kuatkan diri katakan okay, lain kali lah, waktu itu jugaklah hati meronta-ronta untuk berputus asa. Susahnya realiti hidup.

Kehidupan Degree makin susah. Cuba untuk buat yang terbaik bila keadaannya masih sama. Usaha sedaya upaya untuk belajar sampai kadang-kadang lupa untuk tunduk kepada Dia. Jangan mencari bila terasa susah nanti dicop bodoh sombong sampai bila-bila. Mengadu domba tak cukup sini sana tapi diri rasa kerdil nak dibandingkan dengan lain yang sedia ada. Memberi harapan, meletakkan harapan, meminta maaf, cukup untuk menenangkan kembali jiwa? Jangan buat sebab simpati, buat kerana ikhlas dari hati. Jujur walaupun menyakitkan hati dari terus membohongi.

R. E. D. H. A.

Zasetsu.

それは我々が他人から良いニュースのすべてのことを聞いたときに私は非常に不満ですが、それが私達に来るとき、私たちは実際に何を彼らがすることができますように行うことはできません。はい、私の日本語が悪かった。と私は気イライラしています。私はそれぞれの質問を研究する私のベストを尽くしたが、最後で私に何が起こった。
  
Yes, I hate myself for not scoring.

Only you.

You always be my perfect drugs if I'm down. Thank you. I never bored watching you :)

Oral Test 1.

Watashi wa haha ni konvo purezento o moraimashita.

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TV Fanatic Favorite Teen Couple:
Blaine Anderson & Kurt Hummel

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I.A.D.G.

Rehearsal Day.

DATC toilet.

Graduation Day.

That's mine :)

548 and 549.

Hoteliers.

One of my favorite picture.

Graduation Dinner.

Private function.

Custom made gift.

Us.

Thanks Pn N, Miss Fe and Miss Anida.

Day after Graduation with BFF Ikan.

Sebelum hujan lebat!

Bunga Ros dari Ikan. Arigato!

Bear Gemok ayah bagi :)

Ros kuning + pink dari ibu.

Hari berjimba seterusnya :)

With the twins. Tak payah nak twins sangat lah.

Alhamdulillah syukur Ya Allah. Berikanlah kekuatan untuk kami mengharungi tahap seterusnya. Insyaallah berusaha ke arah Kelas Pertama. Kau berkatilah semua apa yang kami pelajari. Kau berkatilah persahabatan kami. Amin. 

P/S: I.A,D.G - I'm A Diploma Graduate. Poyo je. Padahal Degree baru nak mula kan. Tak apelah. Bukan selalu convo. Btw, congratulation to you. Nanti orang datang waktu dia convo. Kalau ada rezeki dia, orang hadiahkan Glee merchandise. Gleeks~

Hari Wanita.

This is my second time to have a bunch of ngok-ngek housemates. Previously during my Internship at Malacca with some lovely Hoteliers. And now I have one former Mutiararians and Civil student; Zaty @ Mak Kiah, three Accountants; Temah, Dayah and Nudrah and two Hoteliers babes; Yanana and Awin. And not forgotten 503 regular mates, Nadia_Ikan :)

Sadly we Hoteliers are moving out from the house starting next semester. And you guys will be missed. Thanks for being one of my best memories for this new life of Degree. Thanks for accepting my best friend in the house. Thanks for taking care of Ku and Ra for me. Lets enjoy our time together until the end of semester. 

So, bila nak keluaq makan besaq lagi? Hehe.

Mana?

Daripada R2D2 yang ni,

Baik yang ni. Dapat kawan dengan Puck :)

P/S: Ouh Blaine Anderson..

Nvm.

When we actually do concern about them and make effort to protect the friendship, we didn't realize that they never appreciated it back.

When we start to remembering the old memories together, we are not realizing that you are not one of friends that in their memories.

When you are actually love them for who they are but actually they didn't feel it just because of the short period of your friendship.

But..

It is okay. As long as you are happy dear friend. Even it is without me

P/S: Thanks to you for listening.

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Homework 1citizen.

Credit to:
1) Nur Syaqwa Mohd Farid : girl in the picture.
2) Nooodles Restaurant, Subang Airport : the location.

Selepas Konvo :)

Haruslah berjimba bersama rakan baik pulak. Lepas hujan lebat kat tasik seksyen 7, cepat-cepat cari port lain yang syok. Nasib taman depan Masjid Negeri panas elok. Thanks Pika for the place suggestion.

Aku hantar jubah lewat sehari tapi bayar RM2 je. Berbaloi lah kan? And and waktu hantar jubah petang tu, jumpa kawan Sek Teknik and former Culinarians at Penang, Fikree@Boy dengan gf dia, Che Pah. Dua-dua pulak kawan aku dengan nadia. Kecik nya dunia. Haha.

My convocation stories? Nantilah cerita :)

Cuppy.

Malam ni buat cupcakes and cakes dengan Nadia_ikan, Yanana, Buyay, Shaz and mungkin Awin jugak.

Untuk dinner Convocation malam esok :)

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Used Too part 2.

And were are having another meeting for Tourism right after the Financial test. I am willingly to let go my position as treasurer because of the hatred feelings towards me by half of the classmates; from stpm and matruculation. I stop from giving any ideas and suggestion and just having small talks with Yana. They started to be sinical with all my comments from the previous meeting and stop talking nicely with me.

Hey, nampak sangat tak membesar lagi. Dah tanya ada bantahan atau cadangan, aku bagilah. Lepas tu tak boleh nak terima pulak. Macam tu, baik tak payah tanya pandangan orang lain kan. Kalau dieorang je nak betul, nak orang ikut, baik tak payah mintak nak buat perbincangan. Sia-sia je buat semua ni. Aku dah berdendam ni. Tunggulah.

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Kalau online test memang wajib dapat markah sikit. Tak payah online test lah pasni.

Capital G.R.R.

The day.

Convo tak lama dah. Khamis minggu depan je. Mula lah kabut fikir pasal the right baju kurung untuk match dengan jubah. Mula lah kabut nak godek balik kasut yang ada tumit tinggi-tinggi sebab pergi kelas ulang pakai crocs je. Mula lah kabut nak fikir tudung ke selendang dengan inner yang lagi cantik bila pakai topi. Haha. Excited sangat. Lepas convo pulak ada dinner dengan Hoteliers. Dapat jumpa semua balik yang sekarang masing-masing dah rata-rata pergi. Syoknya.

Hari tu Hanis convo aku tak sempat nak ikut. Sesat dekat area Kajang waktu nak ambil Wani dah ambil masa sampai sejam. Aku dah jemput semua best gf untuk datang on my day. Ibu pun nak bawak tok and sedara-sedara lain untuk datang. Cucu first kan. Best jugak kalau dapat bunga banyak-banyak. Haha. Dalam UiTM je dah banyak banner Istiadat Konvo gantung-gantung. Dengan tepi jalan on the way nak balik rumah penuh dengan orang bukak kedai jual bunga. Tak tengok kedai-kedai gambar penuh dengan offer untuk gambar konvo, Happynya rasa :)

Macam Akif cakap:
Beberapa hari je lagi nak sampai masa yang mak ayah aku tunggu selama 3 tahun selepas SPM.

Used too.

Principle of Tourism. Project for this semester is to make an event and let us experience how it feels to be a tourist. Simple as that but the preparation that been made just make me worried of the outcome. I thought student's mentality about some of major things in life will be different as we grow older day by day. I am not blaming the little exposure of UiTM life but I guess I am about to blame their close minded.

People start to talk behind my back and make that unpleasant faces. Yes, it is so annoying but hello guys, my friends and I still have some rights to voice out what we feel about this event. Just be professional and settle all this problems in a correct ways. You guys don't have to make some small groups and start to whisper to each other when I walk across you guys. You guys don't have to pretend to be my friend if you didn't want to. I am not that desperate to be one of your colony.

Students life again just make my day so stressful. It is not because of the great friends by my side. But yes, it is because of some of these human creatures. Please. Think about this things outside of the box. Oh yeah, blaming me and talk behind my back in Facebook or others social network didn't harm me at all. At least I am trying to make some beneficial activities that will give impact in your life rather than doing something ordinary that is so safe compared to our educational level.

Membesarlah.

Good.

It's good to have them by my side. It's good to laugh at the same silly mistakes all along the day and keep laughing. It's good to have my very own time with my best friend. It's good to be close with other Hoteliers; former Penang Hoteliers and Dungun Hoteliers. It's good to have new plans for every day and try to be the best for others. It's good to be strong for myself.

I didn't like one of Bruno Mars song, Count of Me. But the lyrics did shows deeply appreciation of friendship. And I used to dedicated this song to Shaz when she's down. I want to be good to others. Thank you friends.

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Oktober.

Bulan baru dgn semangat baru. Perubahan diri secara perlahan-lahan dengan menerima kutukan, herdikan, tomahan. Cuba berhenti untuk mengkritik dan mempertahankan diri dengan keupayaan sendiri.

Aku masih aku.

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But.

Learning the whole new aspects of hospitality by taking Tourism as the minor subject really add up the tense in the subejct. Sadly, my course registration isn't done yet because of the transfering credit stuffs. And such a hectic weeks when the Hoteliers Clubs arranging one camping session for all the new students.

I'm not saying that I'm not enjoying the whole new degree life. I'm glad to have such a great housemated to live with. 2 months stocks of food items in the kitchen with some little pet in the house and the non stop laughter just made my day. I'm glad to have 3 Penang Hoteliers members as my classmates because at least I know that I'm not all alone.

But there are still some but..

I'm just confused why there are this some kind of human being spesies that love to make fool of others, specifically, make fool of me. Find me when they feel they want to, used me when they feel like they want to. I'm hurt enough. I'm hurting when people just saying sorry without realizing their mistakes. I'm hurting.

What did really breaks my heart is when I knew that your lying. Yes, I used to lied to you but it is such a long time ago. I realized my mistakes and I just stop from doing all that silly things towards you. I'm hurt. It breaks my heart because you have my fully trust and when you did such things to me, I just can believe it and yes again, it hurts. I'm not strong enough, but yes, I will be strong.

Like this.

It is one of a kind Darren Criss Sunglasses. Neon Pink Wayfarer Sunglasses.

Hadoi.

Memang best bila tak sampai sebulan, dah ada orang nak langgar side mirror siap tercabut cermin.

Untunglah kalau duduk rumah teres. Selamat sikit kot.

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A Week.

It is already a week since I started my degree. Things been mixed up little bit because of the do-by-your-own system that I never used too while at Penang. So far, I'm having problem to register course because of the credit transferred and because of it, I cannot download all the notes that going to be use next week. But so far, the lecturers are great especially my Financial lecturer :)

Housemates, there are lovely. I got the biggest room in the house with Yana and Wiwin. Second room for Nudrah and Dayah from KPTM and the 3rd room for Zaty; former 4-1-3 housemates at Mutiararians with Fatima from KPTM. We have our own small black television, small refrigerator and big hall. Nice place to study togeher. I want to cook ikan masak halia and tomyam when we settle down with our kitchen area. Btw our house is at level 5, no lift only stairs but we have a good neighbours, Alhamdulillah.

Suprisingly, for the degree courses, I never knew that we need to choose a minor subject. I choose Culinary Arts for my minor but there are not enough students as 1 class so I end up with Tourism. I'm not into Food Service because I already took Food Management in my secondary school and I knew I can score more in Tourism. Plus I called En Mizan so many times on the 1st day and did asked his opinion for the minor subject. Adoi, I miss En Mizan.

For the class focusing on Tourism as the minor subject, I just have Yana, Wiwin, Shaz, Farith, Bong, Chepa, Afiy and Ezany in our class. Then after dividing the group into two, I just have Yana, Farith and Bong as my classmates from Penang. 4 from Dungun and others from STPM and Matric. Gladly Diploma holders taking different code for BEL and it giving us chance to be in the same class. Only us. Yeay.

I'm interested in learning the roads and short cuts to class and some other good places to eat at Shah Alam than memorizing all the roads and faculties in campus. Haha. I have the chance to met Nadia_Ikan everyday and have our lunch together. So far, Lontong Klang has the best Nasi Lemak and Lontong Special, Restoran Hakim served nice fried chicken and Iced Nescafe. I haven't try my all time favorite Hazelnut Coffee drinks at Old Town Section 7 but Hazelnut Coffee at Hailam Kopitiam was superb! It was nicer than Old Town Ampang and Taman Melawati. Ouh, and laksa from the night market was nice too :)

I did cried on my first day because of the selp depression of having the same enviroment as Penang and thanks to Si Jejaka for listening and giving such a good advices. I'm too afraid of future and I easily get frustrated if there are something that in between of me and my dreams. And thanks to Ikan for your time with me. I want to explore new thing and have some fun with you.

Dear Ulat, say hello to the new Degree life.

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Setiap manusia dijadikan berpasangan dan setiap mereka sudah ditentukan jodohnya.

Kenapa nak pening-pening kepala memikirkan perkara yang sudah pasti? Sedangkan yang tidak pasti kita tak nak fikir dan berusaha untuk mendapatkannya?

- A good friend of him.

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Kerenah.

Rina: Hafiy nak duit dak? Hafiy pilih nk sepuluh ka, seratuih ka, seribu?

Hafiy: Hafiy nak sepuluh!

Rina: Takpa. Kakak bagi seratuih ok?

Hafiy: *suddenly crying* Takmau! Hafiy nak sepuluh!

Rina: Dia ni pasaipa. Orang nak bagi lagi banyak pun takmau!

P/S: Bdk 4 tahun. I Pad panggil Apek.

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Daisuki.

Dapat lepak 2 malam berturut-turut, doing the same stuffs that we used to do before, memang syok. Cubaan buat bergedil and my own style fried rice menjadi dan sedap. Bertambah heaven bila dapat hangout dengan family members yang otak gila-gila and makan makanan sedap non stop.

Conversation lewat malam dan confession yang panjang lebar just make my eid this year more meaningful. I need to admit that I love my old life compared to what I need to face these days. And I love bonding that we have between us.

For you, thanks for everything. I appreciate the gifts that you gave to me yesterday. It was nice.

My life in Shah Alam for degree will be better because you are there. Im looking forward to explore many new stuffs with you. Thanks again.

You are my best friend ever, Ikan_gemok :)

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Raya ke.

Raya sini sana. Aku lagi excited nk smbung degree. Hujung tahun ni hbs 1 sem. Pastu yana ckp next year dieorang compile 3 sem in 1 year. Heaven. Tak sabar nk start life of working. Cause I already plan something with dear bff. Degree oh degree!

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Vitamin C.

Air Ribena isi dalam botol mineral Cactus. Buat bekal time drive.

Terima kasih ayah, sedap air ayah buat.

6 tahun dah.

Tanggal 25 Ramadhan.

Syafiq, Acoi dan kawan-kawan Seksyen 5 ziarah kubur arwah Syamil. Tak sempat melawat kubur arwah Ilyas sebab keluar dah lewat tadi.

Insyaallah Ilyas, lepas raya aku datang jumpa kau. Bersih kubur kau macam selalu.

Aku rindu korang, entry Kenangan 2010.

Adore.

Vlog dia kat Youtube biasa je kalau nak compare dengan Matlutfi atau Anwar Hadi. Tak payah compare dengan Nigahiga atau KevJumba sebab otak mereka lagi gila kan. Haha.

Tapi usaha this guy untuk pronounce every religious terms in English, sangat amazing. Hari tu aku baru join website dia ni. Much more interesting than his Vlog sebab lagi straight forward.

Change is constant. How we experience change, that's up to us.

It can feel like death, or it can feel like a second chance at life. If we open our fingers, loosen our grips, go with it, it can be like pure adrenaline.

Like at any moment, we can have another chance at life. Like at any moment, we can be born all over again.

- Grey's Anatomy.

I am different than others. I may not be good enough but I know how to keep the promises.

Assignment.

# : Kak kita punya assignment buffet tu siapa buat? Nak bincang bila?

+ : Cari siapa ni?

# : Atikah.

+ : Salah lah. Ni bukan Atikah :)

# : Yalah tu Kak Farah, ni Atikah. 

     Tikah tanya Kak Farah pasal assignment buffet nak buat bila. Adoiai.

+ : Atikah dah salah orang. Kak Farah ni dah habis belajar dah.

     Buat assignment buffet elok-elok :)

P/S: Assignment buffet part berapa ek? Part 2 atau part 3 kan. Kalau bukan time kelas serving mesti waktu kelas kitchen. Haha. Teringat time En Mizan marah Mawi sebab buffet line tak cantik. And teringat time Buffet Ramadhan dapat melawa dengan baju kurung. Rindu semua :)

Eleh.

Kumpulan korang nama mula huruf E.

So we came out with a group name, Eleh. Wakil MPP jadi fasilitator, Abg Mat bagi idea suruh buat gaya Eleh, Eleh, Eleh, Eleh untuk gaya kumpulan and terus kalah kena tukar nama jadi Mandom!

They are few new faces yang tak pernah jumpa. Most of them dari Jawatankuasa Perwakilan Kolej and their secretariats. Aku kenal Apiz dan Mai sebab kami dari Sekreteriat MPP.

The memories, just unforgettable. Lepas aku baca post Mai di blog dia, aku terus terimbau semua kenangan kita. Banyak kali explorace dan berjimba di Melaka tapi kenangan group Eleh sangat jelas terasa.

Naik van hotel untuk ke Zoo Negara tau. Bukan tunggu bus macam yang lain. And that's why we won the 1st prize. Mandom ke kami? Mestilah tidak. Hehe. Waktu semua sedang berlari-lari cari klu di Zoo, kami sedang duduk melihat pertunjukan haiwan. Cool kan!

Group Eleh adalah batu loncatan kepada aku untuk terus aktif dengan aktiviti kampus dengan adanya kawan-kawan dari persatuan lain yang banyak membantu. Yelah, baru semester 2 kot time tu. Terima kasih Group Eleh. Hehe.

If you are one of us, I bet you will agree with me :)

Berakhir.

Pagi tadi Wangsa Maju hujan. Rintik-rintik sekejap, lebat sekejap. Tapi sampai ke tengahari terus hujan.

Masjid Wangsa Melawati dah penuh orang. Aku, ibu dan ayah pun turut serta. Jenazah Wardah akan dimandikan, dikafankan dan disembahyang di sini.

Pilu. Hiba. Sebak.

Waktu Widad genggam tangan aku dan tersedu-sedu. Waktu tengok wajah Wardah buat kali terakhir sebelum dikafankan. Waktu jenazah diangkat dan diletakkan di dalam van jenazah.

Aku dan Ida teman Widad cium Wardah buat kali terakhir. Aku menangis jugak. Sebab keadaan fizikal Wardah lain selepas rumah dia terbakar tu. Lain sangat.

Astaghfiruallahal'azim

Terkilan sebab tak dapat turut serta ke kubur. Tapi cukuplah dengan kehadiran aku dan keluarga tadi. Semoga Wardah ditempatkan dikalangan orang beriman, Insyaallah.

29 Julai 2011.

Pukul 6.40 petang. Hospital Kuala Lumpur. Wardah disahkan meninggal dunia.

Innalillahi Wa Innailaharojiun.

P/S: Seorang lagi sahabat telah bertemu denganNya.

Bencana.

Hari tu ibu telefon banyak kali tanya ada dengar bomba, polis dengan ambulans tak dekat kawasan rumah tu. Aku dengan yakin berkata tidak. Yelah tengah bergelumang dengan butter, telur dan mixer di dapur, memang tak dengar lah.

Sekali lagi ibu call, aku dengan kaki ayam keluar rumah suruh ibu dengar sendiri. Heh, tak ada bunyi apa pun. Ada dengar adik si Hasif sebelah rumah tengah nyanyi lagu Lazy dengan semangatnya aje.

Ibu tak puas hati call lagi suruh aku gi tengok row belakang rumah aku, nampak tak segala jentera hebat tu. Yes, setelah disiasat, ada satu kereta bomba yang besar, 2 polis naik motor aje dan ambulans lampu lip lap tanpa bunyi.

Itu rumah Aizatul Widad dan Aizatul Wardah.

Kawan sekolah aku dulu. Sekolah Kebangsaan Wangsa Jaya.

Rumah atas dieorang terbakar. Bilik belakang tu, Wardah duduk. Dia main dengan api lebih kurang macam tu, pastu terbakar, pastu kena kat dia. Belakang badan dia terbakar. Almost 90%. Tangan kanan dia pun kena. And doctor suruh potong sebab nak elak kena Gangrene.

Gangrene is a serious and potentially life-threaring condition that arises when a considerable mass of body tissue dies (necrosis) - Wiki.

Dan rupanya..

Wardah sakit. Dah lama dah. Dia tak dapat belajar. Ada benda kacau dia. Mungkin di luar kawalan dia untuk start up the fire sampai jadi macam ni. Kesian kat dia, dah tak sihat, ditambah bencana macam ni pulak.

Teringat dulu-dulu..

Aku, Reniqa, Ida, Maisarah, Widad main masak-masak. Sikat-sikat rambut, main mekap-mekap. Jual aiskrim, bukak kedai tipu-tipu depan rumah, main Rounders kat padang. Pastu Wardah datang nak join jugak. Wardah muda setahun. Kadang-kadang kiteorang malas nak layan. Hehe.

Semoga family Widad terus tabah menjaga Wardah. Semoga Wardah cepat sembuh.

P/S: Ibu cakap Wardah cantik, pandai, lengkap semua.

Itsumo.

Betul cakap orang.

Bila jarang diungkapkan, ternyata lebih bermakna :)

Acronym.

Bersiar-siar di Putrajaya selepas shopping di Alamanda.

Akmal : JPA, Jabatan Pejabat Ayah.

Aku : Heh?!

Tak lama lepas tu.

Akmal : SPA, Siapa Punya Ayah.

Aku : Hahaha!

Afraid.

I really put my effort towards this little stuff, my second blog. I add up a new page on top that contains some knowledge that I should learn and memorize from now on.

About something that going to happen in future. Something that will make me a stronger person. Maybe. I am not sure about that. But these things going to change my life for a moment. It will change my whole life and I cannot expect anything from myself. Am I going to do well, or am I going to give up?

Herm.

Idk..

I start to think about it when I saw the calendar. How fast the time flies. I wish I can stop the time or just fast forward it. Because in the middle of time, something going to happen to me.

Right after the lepak-ing session and some long serious conversation with the gf, Hanis, I cannot stop myself from searching all of the stuffs needed from Google. Copy, paste into the new page for second blog. And try to understand it well. I start to compare the review that I read and make the conclusion. I simplify it for easy understanding in the new page.

Seriously.

And actually.

I am afraid of future.

I don't have that confidence. Am I be able to go through all of the circumstances that will happen in my way? Or I will stuck in the middle of the problems and will cry all night long?

Today is 23rd July. Fasting on 1st August. Then later, it is the day. Day that change my life. I cannot hold my tears. I just too scared to face the future. Ramadhan is just a bless month but why this should happens in the same month?

This will be hard for me.

Thanks Nadia.

Baik ke.

Semua orang pernah buat benda baik kat orang lain. Belanja sarapan, temankan pergi cucuk duit, tolong belikan topup, sapukan ubat bila sakit, bayarkan dulu duit naik bus 702 balik kampus. Haha. Terimbau pulak time kat Penang.

Kalau orang buat baik kat kita, apa yang kita kena buat?

Balas balik?

Do the same thing?

Enough by saying thank you?

Takpun wat bodoh je, dah dia yang nak buat.

Kerap sangat orang tua-tua cakap, kalau buat baik, nanti kita akan dibalas baik. Buat jahat, akan dibalas jahat. Nadia selalu ingatkan aku, kalau kita buat baik, don't expect that particular person will do the same thing back for us. And tak semestinya mereka akan balas benda tu at that moment atau bila-bila pun.

Why?

Erm.

Sebab Nadia cakap..

Orang tak sama. Rambut aje hitamnya sama-sama, tapi hati semua lain-lain. Kalau kita buat baik kat orang mana-mana pun, jiran ke, kawan baru ke, oh mungkin kat haiwan jugak ke, atau nenek yang sedang melintas jalan ke, tak semestinya mereka akan memberi respone yang akan menyedapkan hati kita.

Kenapa tak sedap?

Dah orang buat baik, balas je lah kan.

But, actually..

Once we did something for others, even tough just one sentence of advice, we must do it sincerely. Melayunya, ikhlas. Dengan niat yang baik, untuk menggembirakan hatinya, untuk menyenangkan kerjanya, untuk membuatkan dia lebih bahagia dengan hidup.

Cuba bayangkan, kalau kita bagi hadiah kat kawan. Pos lah konon-konon. Yelah, duit lebih kan nak belanja kawan. Pastu dia tak cakap seronok pun bila dapat hadiah tu. Dia just cakap thank you, lepas tu tak cakap pun nanti nak pos hadiah balik kat kita.

Pathetic sangat tu kalau berharap.

Cuba fikir macam ni..

Aku ikhlas belikan kat dia dengan duit lebih yang aku ada. Harap dia suka hadiah aku. Thank you yang dia ucapkan tu sendiri dah membawa 1001 maksud. Aku harap sangat hari-hari dia akan terus ceria dengan hadiah yang aku bagi tu.

Ha, comel sikit kan camni. Hehe.

Dan kita mungkin tak tau..

Cara kawan kita menghargai barang yang kita bagi tu adalah dengan cakap terima kasih. Dan tu je benda yang dia mampu buat. Ha, boleh jadi jugak. Same goes to other things lah. Bagi kita, bila dah temankan gi toilet, tandanya friends forever. Padahal untuk kawan kita tu, gi toilet sebab nak buang air je.

See, orang lain-lain. Pemahaman lain-lain.

Buat baik berpada-pada, buat jahat jangan sekali.

Kita jangan jadi baik sangat. Nanti orang pijak kepala kita. Tu yang Si Jejaka selalu tegur aku. Jangan sebab orang lain, kita je yang asyik kena berkorban. Jangan sebab hal kehidupan dia, kita pulak kena korbankan apa yang kita dah ada. Macam askar-askar pulak berkorban korban. Haha.

Buat baik untuk semua.

Mana tau nanti dia tolong kita balik.

Semua orang pun kena terus buat baik. Dapat pahala tau. Lagi-lagi lepas Nisfu Syaaban, kita dah dapat buku baru. Buku lama, dah diangkat ke atas. Aku tak sure buku tu sedang dinilai oleh Allah atau disimpan oleh Malaikat. Ilmu tak cukup lagi. Maaf.

Biar kita bahagiakan dan senangkan orang lain dulu sekarang. Sampai masa kita nanti, mungkin kita adalah orang yang paling bahagia di dunia :)

P/S: Ya, aku makin suka tulis panjang-panjang.

3D pulak.

This is what I am waiting for. Glee 3D Concert Movie. 12 August. Time bulan puasa. Hehe. Compilation concert mereka macam cerita This Is It Micheal Jackson tu. Keterujaan sangat melampau tak sabar nak tunggu bulan August! Mesti syok sangat dapat tengok muka Si Boyfriend besar-besar dalam hall cinema nanti. Syok, syok, syok!

And recently, lagu Teenage Dream nyanyian si Boyfriend Darren Criss and team, The Warblers dah diiktiraf mendapat emas sebab mencapai jualan 500,000. Tapi lagu dia hak len pun sedap heh. Macam When I Get You Alone dengan Misery. Tahniah The Warblers!

Bait.

Sesungguhnya di Syurga nanti,
Isteri yang solehah itu akan menjadi ketua di antara semua bidadari untuk suaminya.

- Stanza Cinta TV3.

Camana lagi.

Degustation tukar lagi. Tiba-tiba dah bosan lagi. Long time ago pernah buat background pokok duit-duit. Teyha suka sangat. Tapi sekarang malas nak fancy-fancy. Amik kat blogger template senang. Haha. IT tak IT sangat lah.

So today, I went out with Zaty and Khai.

Dah ajak family Mutiararians semua tapi ada yang kerja, ada yang senyap seribu bahasa. Last-last tinggal bertiga, but it was fun. Rindu semua. I wish dapat jumpa Nyah sebab last time jumpa kat food court Kristal pastu tak sempat nak hye Nyah pastu Nyah buat muka macam membawa maksud 'Oh, ko tak jumpa aku pun Farah'. Haha. Sorry Nyah!

Tadi just pusing KLCC dan gelak sangat kuat sampai malu-malu tapi gelak je peduli apa. Haha. Join that Graduan Aspirasi, Karnival Kerjaya tapi sedikit kecewa sebab they focus more on after Degree punya future plan. So, just jalan-jalan budget cam 'aku dah Master beb' dengan mereka and stop kat booth Loreal. Amoi tu cakap, Under Loreal ada 15 brands yang dieorang jaga such as Garnier, Maybelline, Shu Uemura etc. Fuh, baru tau.

The best part of the day.

1st time ever solat dekat Masjid KLCC. It was nice. Sangat. Deco dalam dia simple aja. Biasa lah semua masjid pun ada chandelier besar kat tengah. Tapi cuba gi PI UiTM Penang. Dia letak 2 helicopter besar. Time terawikh memang kusyuk sampai kadang-kadang mata pun tertutup-tutup :) Ada foreigners datang pakai jubah biru. Tengok interior of the mosque. Bila dia dah bukak jubah, sekali skirt pendek fuh, seksi gitu :)

Yang lagi best bila..

14 years old girl sesat kt KLCC, mintak nak pinjam phone sebab tak jumpa bf, tup tup bf ada dekat Pavi, dia tak tau jalan and all of us, pergilah menghantar budak tu sampai ke sana. Haha. Khai kena call bf budak tu and menyamar jadi kakak tapi bila dah sampai Pavi budak tu cm ngendeng-ngendeng kat Zaty suruh Zaty yang jadi kakak pulak. Macam-macam. Until now, kiteorang still risau dekat budak kecik tu. Sebab bf dia macam 'tak boleh diharap' punya style. Harap-harap nothing happens to her.

And, I just miss writing.

Like a very long essay that we used to do in Part 3 for BEL. Ataupun macam jawapan CTU yang lagi panjang lagi banyak markah dapat. Haha. I'll do it in my own way. Tak ada siapa pun yang baca blog ni pastu macam nak kecoh kat semua budget cam diri ni artis. Haha. Budget icon dalam dunia alam maya. Padahal Facebook pun tak ada. Rilex aje :)

Cair :)

You may think I look good in suits, but it's all a lie

cause there's pins and shits behind me

and they do that for every guy :)

<3 Darren Criss, The Roxy.

Gembira berduka.

Dah dekat 21 tahun hidup di bumi Allah, Alhamdulillah.
Banyak benda dah jadi dari kecik sampai sekarang.
Dari tadika, sek rendah, sek menengah dan universiti.
Dari tak reti nak berfikir sampai dah penat nak fikir.

Gembira, suka, gelak, tawa, riang, bahagia.
Siapa yang nak lupa bila dah rasa macam ni.
Kalau boleh nak record pada setiap masa.
Tak nak lupa satu pun sebab sangat beharga.

Sedih, menangis, terasa, menyakitkan hati, duka lara.
Siapa yang nak ingat bila dah rasa macam ni kan.
Tak nak record pun, siap nak permanently delete lagi.
Tak nak ingat satu pun sebab tak berguna.

Tapi tak aci lah kalau asyik nak bahagia dan gembira je.
Nanti macam tak stable kan. Berat sebelah pulak.
Trylah to accept the other side of life, yang tak seronok tu.
Cuba menerima dengan hati yang sangat sangat terbuka.

Sebab, bila kita menerima yang tak syok sangat tu,
Kita sebenarnya tengah mencabar diri kita sendiri tau.
Untuk menjadi orang baru yang orang lain tak jangka :)

P/S: For you, just stop from hating me.
Sebabnya I neeever hate you pun. Chill lah :)

Rewind : OPKIM Balik Pulau.

MMS from Syuhada this evening.

Ni kami la Syuhada yang Kak Farah

mai sekolah petang tu at Sungai Pinang.

Kami rasa Kak Farah ada gambar kami.

Syuhada the smallest one.

Hasna, one of the kembar (Ayu/Ati), Tok and me.

We shared the same Tok with Safwan and Abg Ezat.

Family angkat Abg Ayob bagi hadiah in Snow White Goodies Bag :p

Syok sangat. Sampai hanyut tupperware.

Siapa yang join sekali mesti ingat moments ni.
Gotong royong lukis mural kat dinding sekolah.
Jadi fasilitator, buat persembahan, BBQ lagi.
Angkat ke, tak angkat ke, keluarga tetap keluarga :)

Adriana, Atifah & Anis.